Monday, January 07, 2008

Feelings

“Goodbye, please don’t cry / We both know that I’m not what you need.”
(Photo: Ernie Sisto/The New York Times)
I feel really bad today.
My mind/heart/soul/ whatever you wanna call it hurts today.

My eyes have been teary all morning.
I didnt do the things I was supposed to and I'm just sad. Really sad.
I'm confused.
I'm in a place where I don't really want to be. I'm the confusion state of mind.
I fucking hate this. I really do.

It's a beautiful day here in NY. Kinda cold, but sunny.
Kids are back with the normal schedule and I feel like crap. My pain is back in my lower abdomen both sides. I'm going to the doctor on Friday. I messed up my appointments and scheduled both (sonogram and doc's) the same day. So so dumb!

1 comment:

Diva's Thoughts said...

I'm hoping the pain in your side subsides really soon. I know how uncomfortable that is.

I'm not sure what to say about the emotional state you are in except it will pass. I'm not sure of the root cause of the sadness so I can't really go any deeper then that. I'm sorry because I know this does nothing for you but hang in there anyway.