(Sigh)

There are so many things going on right now and I don't seem to be able to control any of them.

I dont usually post about what's going on, the problems, the situations, the fights, the crazyness, the doubts, the frustrations, dissapointments... I think that's something that i have to keep for myself, but there are days that i'd love to explote and write about all that.

but i can't.

i fucking hate lies.

one thing is to cover something up. to avoid telling it. to hide it.

other too different is to lie about it.

' did you take the shirts to the cleaners?'

"yes i did!"

(and the shirts are still in the hamper)

that's a stupid example, but that's how thing starts... little lies, little not-truth situations.

in this book 'the kite runner' the father says to the son:

"There is only one sin, only one. And that is theft. Every other sin is a variation of theft....When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife's right to a husband, rob his children of a father. When you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to the truth. When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness."

i hate how lying steals the truth... :(

i woke up very early today, and i'm tired.

even though it's a great day, it's one of those days that I should have stayed in bed! (the only bad thing is my house has no AC so that would habe been like being in the sauna all day!)