'I see dead people'

While it's a joke for many people to talk about darkness, fears, and so on... it's not really a joke for me to talk/think about it. I don't watch horror movies, or very intense movies involving mystery or suspense. I think the world is bad already for me to be putting more in my mind.

This past week, however, I was reading about the Air France jet that disappeared in the Atlantic and one link led to one another... and another to another and it led to this specific video of 9/11.

I've watched many videos on the WTC collapsing, and the planes hitting the WTC. I have seen this documentary twice but I never saw this clip I saw on Tuesday night. To me, it was so perturbing (it's only 0.45 sec long) I had to close my eyes, put my hand on the screen blocking the scenes and turn the sound off.

I got scared.

For the first time in a lonnnng time, I was scared. It could have been because it was so late at night, or the fact that I realized how evil people could be... I don't know. But I know that feeling of being alone, and scared.

When I had the courage to go take a shower (getting out of my room was a process that took me about 10 minutes) I closed my eyes inside the shower and I pictured my family standing up around my Nona's table and all of us reciting Psalm 23.

What a Peaceful moment!

What a great memory!!!

What a wonderful promise!

At that time, standing alone, inside the shower... I felt safe because

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:

he leadeth me beside the still waters.

He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the

paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the

shadow of death; I will fear no evil: for thou

art with me; thy rod and thy staff they

comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the

presence of mine enemies: thou anointest

my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all

the days of my life;
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.'.

Happy Sabbath