Secret Lives of Women

I was chatting with my mom last night and I was watching the WE channel.
Again.
I saw 2 shows:
* Secret lives of Women: Women who love bad boys
* Secret lives of Women: Extreme weight Loss

'Women who love bad boys' was focused on women married to incarcerated men.
Not just any normal guy.
Murderers. Serial killers. Really really f-d up guys.
It was sad coz these women live their lives hoping for the impossible... the guys to come back home.
Most of them are on death row and there was this chick, she was like 24, 25 marrying this murderer who's NEVER gonna be out.
How can you be married and have a happy life with a person who's behind bars, who's NEVER gonna be there to support you and be with you?
I mean, I'm married to a guy whose job is to be in the sea for 2 months, then home for 2 months and then again at sea for 2 months and I fucking hate it. I find it extremely hard to sleep without Gary and I wake up almost every night and it's like I'm looking for Gary in my bed.
He's never slept here (in my bed) but it feels really weird to wake up and not have him here. Besides, we sleep like we're garrapatas. lol.

The following show was about women who lost extremely amount of weight.
One of those women was Jen.

Jen was 300 lbs when she was 27 and it took her some dramatic experiences to realize she needed to change her life.
After a lot of work and sacrifice, Jen looks like this:
She dropped about 180lbs and she became a personal trainer and she looked very happy.
She didn't seem to have a surgery and to my understanding she busted her ass off to look the way she does now.

It was a good show and I just felt that if she could do it, why can't I?
I'm not that big, but I'm still big and I feel she was just a good 'inspiration', you know?
I have a lot of people to get inspired by, but it was good to see somebody else doing something for their own well being.