:(

i miss him.
i have decided not to talk about him.
i just want to vent here. i will do it on and off....
please forgive me if i repeat feelings. if i say 'i still love him' or if i say 'i miss allen'.
it's not easy.
at least for me it's not.
I have good news though. i'll post later.


update 9.20pm
i'm crying.
it hurts... so bad.
I miss him... I really do.