Expectations...

8am in NY.
9am in Argentina.

My brother and my SIL are in the US Embassy, having their interview to get a visa to come to the US. i'm really nervous as they have SO MANY things that could backfire on them (being young, coming all together, etc. etc).
So I spent most of the night thinking about them and praying everything goes the way it has to go... If they dont get the visa, it's a bummer... they would have lost a lot of $, and me? my chance to see them.

I spent most of the day really sad for what I'd done with my friend - that text message.
When he confronted me about it, i told him the reasons why i had done that, and i felt worse than before because i'm not like that... i reacted in a way that i wasnt expecting and i felt horrible afterwards. Most of the day after i told him about it i felt bad. He didnt call me or msg me, and i thought he was mad at me. I went for my daily walk and when i came back i decided to txt him. I got online and i IM him instead.

me. hi
him. hi
m. are you mad at me?
h. no. i'm not mad at you
m. i'm sorry
h. i'm not mad at you. i thought you were mad at me and not for the reasons you mentioned
m. i shouldnt have said that to you.
h. you can say anything you want to me. you know that. i just didnt know the reason. i'm not saying it in a bad way but i have much respect for you. that's why you can say anything you want.

We've known each other for a long time and the thought of me having a fight with him wasnt really nice. I can't stand being mad at him, or just not being able to be 'friends' with him. i can do that with a bunch of other people, not him.
So he told me to call him today and he wanted to talk to me and stuff.
so that means everything is ok.