No.more.myspace

i had a horrible week last week.
PMS is attacking harder lately.
i have ugly mood switch- cry/curse too much. so all these happened in the same day: wednesday:

• i woke up really early, around 6am to hear M-dad-walking thru the garage door and turning the alarm off. Ryan was already awake and S-mom- told me they would be having a 'playdate' with T&Z-spoiled 4y-o twins- after ballet.
• i went to school to pick them up and L-T&Z's mom- told me i was suppossed to go to her house after school. i was like: WTF???? S never told me we were gonna go after school. Nicole is not a happy camper after having had so much action in a day and it just bothered me coz i'm the one with them after all the activities... geeeeeeeeeeeeeez
• came home in silent. told the kids not to even DARE talk to me. i was upset. Nicole asked me why i was upset and i told her that i wasnt mad at her or anything. i was just feeling bad. they were really good. they didnt talk to me... (i really hate it when we take our frustration and madness in the kids... but i'm with them 100% of the time)
• we went home, get our stuff ready, i finished cleaning the house and then we went to T&Z's house. OMG! when i got there J -annoying kid with annoying mother- was there too. Poor Georgi -nanny- who was to be with them all the time!!! N&R behaved like they always do. they dont fight, they're polite and they try to be good kids. Z&T were so mean to Nicole and i felt bad for her. she's a sweet little girl and the other one (Z) was just so mean to her!!!!! Nicole got ready to go to ballet while L was chasing Z to get her outfit on.
• ballet time: we got there LATE because of Z and when we were there Z didnt want to get out of the car. I'm like... we're late and you dont wanna get out? OUT RIGHT NOW! i grabbed her by her arm, she gave me this look of: who the fuck do you think you are to be talking to me that way- and we went to ballet 5 minutes late (*).

(*) BEING LATE: i have a problem with being late. being picked up late. going late to a movie, to a concert, to the airport, everywhere!!! (except church -i must confess) so if you pay for 45min class why i'm gonna be late and waste 5 minutes or 10 minutes or 15 minutes???? i dont like that and i'm always trying to make my best for Nikki to be in ballet on time.

• after i dropped them off at ballet i called Andrea and i told her: i dont know how you could take care of Z&T and she started laughing. she wasnt laughing only for what i said. she was laughing coz she was back with her ex-now-boyfriend. OH GOD! I WAS SO MAD!!! i hung up on her and i started crying. why? coz i can't believe people can be so stupid on going back to guys who hurt them. i guess we are all the same... women are stupid- we like to be hurt. have our hearts broken.
• my day ended with a conversation with Dina on Yahoo! Msgr. i called her around 11.30pm and she was still up. it wasnt that she was sleeping or something. we talked on the phone for a few minutes, and then we talked on yahoo. then she said to me: why did you call me so late? i was like: what the fuck is wrong with you? we always talked late so i dont see a problem on calling her that late. So my first and only reaction was to respond her like this: go fuck yourself. i wont call you anymore. bye. 2 minutes later i erased my myspace profile. not completely. just all the stuff that was in it. so now my profile is completely EMPTY.

fun :)